Germaine Louise Heng
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benji daphne gabriel gillian isaac kathleen kelly lichu lin xin mujia may oddy pris rachel safiah shahini shermaine sheryl swee jin tanya terence weiting xavier yan hui yuting zachary
CREDITS
FONTS. swimchick
IMAGE. as credited.
CODES. shotgun
DESIGNER. sheryl

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Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

season ends tmr. it'll be the final match.
i really thought we could go on but oh wells.
i've got like mixed feelings inside of me.
kind of wanna see my team progress
but i don't wanna go training.
i hope the rest are alright they really fought really hard.
gosh there's so much homework
nowadays and lectures are going super fast
i'm feeling the stress already
but its funny how i still slack around on facebook.

FOCUS!

seeing D today was just oo painful to me.
i thought that he going to germany would ease the pain and help him forget
but the poor guy lost weight and seems to be in depression.
and that just made me tear
that i had to walk away and cry
cause i really totally understand how he felt and i know how that feeling feels
and no mattter how you occupy yourself
you can't stop thinking.
GOD PLEASE TAKE HIS PAIN AWAY

crap gp hw is killing me.
is it better to be lucky or smart thats the essay qn.
wth. i was asking mum for help and to give me examples and she said
" if your lucky you wouldn't have gotten him as your teacher"
"if your smart you would be able to do the essay"
wts so she's just indirectly saying i'm not smart and neither am i lucky.

APRIL is here. oh wells it's going to be a really BUSY BUSY month
netball competitions start in a weeks time
4 more trainings to go i can't wait for cca to be over :D:D:D
been counting down ever since the 10th and
guess what i influenced the whole team to count down too haha.
even the captain and vice cap! haha. thats how much we hate training.
poor j1s they have like what at least 80 more to go.
its so sad realising that the people around you got drop one after another
and that you too nearly got drop at one pt.
but its just like you suddenly realise how fast time flies and that suddenly
all your team mates that you bitched with that you went through tough times with
that encouraged you and you encouraged ain't there anymore.
they ain't there to go through all the shit together with.
i really miss the rest of them. at least those times we had fun training.
now we just keep praying for rain.
haha it was damn funny we all came into a circle during break time
and rebecca led the prayer " please God please bring down the rain cause we all really do not want to train and do suicide runs. we ask this in your most holy name"
and then in unison we all said "AMEN"
and then i went away thinking hey! there were ppl there
who weren't christian or catholic but still they said AMEN
see the power of wanting to stop training. desperate times call for desperate measures.
but God only brought a drizzle though. i think we should have specified HEAVY rain.
but these are the times i will always treasure and look back at
as the :D moments of my netball life.

i've got to start wrecking my brains for an amazing plan.
this time i wanna make it great. i hope i can :D

i feel really bad that i dissappointed mr low
oh man he has great expectations for me
and i wish i can achieve it too.
PTM ended up making me feel really lifeless
after hearing what mr low had to say
even DAD got a shock that i let my teacher down so much.
i can't help it i just can't focus i don't know why. :(
letting myself down is one thing but letting others down makes it feel so much worst.

haha i took the what does your birthday say about you quiz of fb cause i was darn bored waiting for time to pass and go for training(which i'm super dreading)

i find it extremely accurate from what ppl tell me and i myself feel. but some are totally out la.

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

gosh i don't wanna really go for training :(

woohoo Cts are over yeah finally!
staying up till 4am just to finish mugging sucked.
i'm so going to start studying earlier next time haha!
but all the crazy studying time were great
the funniest would definitely be the one where V and A
used cardboards to cover their heads from the storm.

Class outing 1: benjamin buttons
i really enjoyed the show i felt it taught me alot.
" We were meant to lose people. How else would we know how important they are?"
the show made me think of you how much i've lost you in a way. how much i don't know you. how much i don't want to know you.how much you actually value after all this while. feelings of nostalgia came back. looking at your photos made me realise how much you have changed from the person i knew at the begining till now. you've come a long way.i 've changed too i guess thats what your thinking. yeah well maybe this change is for the better.
days pass and go yet we never bother to catch up.telling ourselves 'yeah we'll catch up when we're free' are all but just ways of escaping. its the march hols already but we don't seem to be doing anything.But if i die one day, I want to remember us, just as we were before and not the people we are today.
so this words my friend i give to you cause i know getting the old you back seems impossible and i've no control over you. I might not be there for you just like when your beloved family member passed on.(i'm sorry i just didn't have that strength after being pushed away i just wanted to ignore the situation ignore whatever feelings of concern) I might not have that strength to be there for you, though i would really love to but you may not give me that chance. thanks for having been there for me at my weakest.
For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
-Benjamin Button

Class outing 2: Marley and me
i finally got to eat my subway cookies
but i'm still craving for more! i want subway cookies!
think marley and me was really touching
its the first show in a long while that really made me tear.
J and i were tearing away like crazy haha and she has 5 dogs!
even guilty S who went to watch with H brought her dog
out for a walk straight after and to the beach the next day.
what wonders a movie can do.
"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbol means nothing to him. A waterlogged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. It was really quite simple, and yet we humans, so much wiser and more sophisticated, have always had trouble figuring out what really counts and what does not.

and then we went all the way to queenstown to find backpacks didn't see anything i liked though :(:(:( MEATBALLS WERE GREAT! haha but i'm craving for the cake i had the other time.

oh i don't wanna forget the incident where S dislocated her arm. MS P, JY and i sent her straight to Tan Tock Seng. it was really scary when i heard coach say" she just needs to go to the hospital". i was like wth. R said my face turned blue. i was like damn scared for her. Her eyes were damn red and she was so brave. she could still laugh when the car went over the hump though it was super pain cause of the jerk. i won't forget having to push her on the wheelchair through the cramp pathway where we banged into another wheelchair "eh next time i can be a nurse leh!" "your head la! stop making me laugh its damn pain". But i hate the feeling of being at the hospital. the feeling that the ppl next to you may be just moments from their death and ambulances arrive with paramedics rushing ppl in. family members trying to stop bleedings while the elderly ppl just sit there and don't seem to know they're even bleeding. the feeling= terrible. i could just be them next time. reminds me of today when H S and i went shopping some ppl actually said hey would you all like to take a photo and see what you all will look like when your 60? i was like NO WAY! ohmygosh i know its part of reality that we'll grow old but i rather not think about it or be shown a picture of it!

ROCKAFELLA V was yesterday.
haha fickle minded me couldn't make up my mind
if i should go or not.
it was not till like 1pm that i decided i should go
after changing from table to table to ask ppl's opinions.
it was totally worth it i don't regret :D
haha A's band won they were great.
The j3 band was superb they really brought down the house.

its been a great week i must say getting closer to J.
she told us her secrets which were damn funny.
couldn't make me stop laughing.
then she nearly pushed KH off the buiding
and cheeky him tried to fake us that he was really falling off.
J and T screamed till they nearly cried.
gosh only smart me didn't get tricked haha.

CTS are coming but i can't concentrate
i shouldn't even be online now.
i can't wait for cts to end.
I PROMISE to spend time shopping and sleeping
and going out with T, I, S&C, and others. haha yeah!


"sticks and bones may break my bones but
words won't get me down"
- T's wise words to me
thanks S, C, T, KH, X, A and all the netballers
for your words of encouragement.
i'm way :D now.



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